I Want to Be Two
I want to be someone in between
The me now, and the me before
and somehow, I am the me I've become
Because of this
Torn
Separated from my confidence,
Humiliated by my greed
Crushed by my lack
of self-control
self-restraint,
self-denial
I want to be two
The one THEY see,
and the me YOU see.
I sigh
Who am I?
Unfaithful
to myself. my future. my desires. my dreams
the real me screams
for you to understand
I want to be ONE
with you,
and the other
to save.
The conflict
so grave, the possibilities
to stand up,
only to fall for you.
not the one;
but the Two.
One for myself
One for you
leaving nothing for someone. . .
for who?
I want to be two.